The Lens I See Through

The Lens I See Through

I grew up on an acreage in a rural community outside Edmonton. I went to a small rural high school until half way through grade 11 when I transferred to a new school because the bullying I had been going through since grade 4 was too much and I needed a fresh start. In the two high schools that I attended in my schooling, there was not much diversity in the cultures of the students or families in the school, the teachers or the community.

Growing up in a predominately white community there was little knowledge of other cultures. I can imagine there were some rather powerful encounters for the people of other cultures coming into this community. I did not explicitly see it but that does not mean those types of interactions did not go on in my community. This perception of my community is a lens that I see it through, I did not see the injustices occurring so to me they weren’t there. My lens is not being exposed to that type of hatefulness. To a certain degree, I think that makes me a little nieve to what actually goes on in the world. I was sheltered living where I lived. My mom made sure we saw many places like Seattle, Los Angles, and New York, but I still feel like I saw the world through this sheltered lens. Since going to university I have learned a lot and have seen many different cultural groups in the three universities I have attended. Since moving to Regina and participating in a volunteer placement for another education class I have seen more range in the SES, ability, and ethnicity of people. I want to believe that these experiences are changing the lens I see the world through, but in order for that to happen, I need to stay open-minded.

Along with the place I grew up in I have a lens to what schools mean to me. Being isolated and ridiculed during the majority of my schooling has in many ways altered my lens of what relationships should be like. The way I view the social interactions between students is more serious to me because I have a personal connection to being treated badly by my peers. This lens through which I see schools is one of the biggest reasons I decided teaching is something that I want to pursue. For a long time, I didn’t believe teachers were meant to help students with their social problems becuase many of mine never did. That thought didn’t change until my grade 12 year when my favorite biology teacher reached out and gave me a place I could be when times were tough. Lunch hour was really hard for me becuase I felt very alone when I sat eating my lunch alone in the hall. I didn’t have friends to hang around and waist the 45 minutes with so it felt like an eternity. My biology teacher gave me an open door invitation to each lunch in his classroom. This pretty much saved me, I had somewhere to go and I was able to feel like I belonged at school instead of dreading it every day. The lens I will bring into the classroom is one that sees teachers as guides to students as well as being someone there to help when help is needed.

Something that creates bias is the idea of the “single story,” this is the idea that for many cultures or people from other countries there is only one story created about them as a people or the way they live in their culture. This single story is one true or untrue belief about the culture or the people of a culture and it is the only one that is perceived by others. This idea comes from a TED talk that we viewed in lecture today where an African woman told her story about her interactions with the single stories about her culture and how she lived. In my own schooling, I was told a single story about the indigenous population. Learning about the residential schools and the issues that they still went through today created a single story that indigenous people always live in poverty, have dead-end jobs, and do bad things to good people. This was not the intended story to be left in minds of students during social class in jr. high, but it was the story that was left in my mind. It didn’t help that there wasn’t any indigenous students or teachers in our school to change how that story was written. There was no struggle between who’s truth mattered more, there wasn’t anything to change the perception that we had created. This is a bias that I will bring into the classroom. I am working to change that bias and to become educated through the volunteer placement I am in.

As a future teacher I acknowledge my biases I will be bringing into the classroom and the unique lens I will be looking at it with. There is nothing without bias, as a teacher I hope to reduce the bias that I show in the classroom to give each student a fair chance no matter where they come from.

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Jessica Wiedemann

Jessica is a student at University of Regina. Her passion for helping others and advocacy for the prevention of bullying in schools has lead her to a career in education. She is a dog lover, photographer, and a food lover.

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A Teacher’s Identity

A Teacher’s Identity

Identity is being who you are. Identity is influenced by everything around oneself and of oneself. A teacher’s identity is constructed through much of the basic parts of one’s life, personality, and where one comes from. Some examples of the basic attributes of a person that affects their identity are:

  • Ethnicity
  • Socioeconomic status (SES)
  • Gender
  • Sexuality
  • Ability
  • Religion
  • Occupation

Along with formed identities of teachers by themselves, there are ideas of what teachers are supposed to be or what they have been portrayed as. Stereotypes of teachers are often formed from media like movies, TV shows, books and the news. Some of these stereotypes are the inspiring teacher, the cool teacher, and the attractive teacher. These stereotypes that have been created have effects on teachers to be inspiring, influential, and maybe even be saviors to students. There is a pressure created to be the better of the stereotypes and not fall into the bad stereotypes. As anyone who has gone through the education system knows, almost all of these stereotypes are not true, sadly including the inspiring teacher. That is not saying there are not teachers who are inspiring, but there aren’t very many teachers who get their students to stand up and say “oh captain, my captain” outside of films. As with any other stereotypes, there are only partial truths or no truth to the assumptions made of people who seem to fit a stereotype. When I first thought about being a teacher I wondered what kind of teacher I was going to be. Would I be inspiring or just simply a regular teacher who no one remembers? As I have moved through the past two years of my teacher’s education I have come to terms with the expectations I had for myself and I have had my eyes opened to the reality of being a teacher. I wanted to be an inspiring teacher so I tried really hard to think in inspiring ways, but I had to force it and that didn’t feel right. I understand that not every student will be inspired by the things I do or say in or out of the classroom. Being an educator is going to put me in the position of being inspiring without trying or even knowing it. The teacher that inspired me to be a teacher didn’t even realize they were doing it. They took time to make me feel like I belonged and had somewhere to go if I needed it. They did it out of the goodness of their heart not to be an inspiring teacher or to receive accolades from others. I have realized the idea of being inspiring was more for my personal benefit, I wanted to feel influential and be a leader for myself. Since my first education class, I have realized that my main goal is to help students find their way in life and help them when they are unsure or are struggling. I am there for them, not for me.

Teachers’ identity is also shaped by the codes of professionalism and conduct that are put in place by the government and teaching organizations and federations like the STF. They define the ways in which a teacher conducts themselves in the professional world. This defines where a teacher’s boundaries are and what is expected of them from other teachers. This is the base of what a teacher is to do. These codes of professionalism and conduct uphold the respect that is given to teachers because as teachers they are held to a standard among other teachers.

There are both internal and external influences on the identity of a person. People focus on different parts of their identity depending on what day it is or the situation they are in. On Canada Day there is a pride in that part of my identity, or when I am asked what I am studying in school I am more than happy to tell them I am studying to be a teacher. Different situations change what part of who we are is at the surface for people to see.

What part of your identity are you most proud of today?


References

Saskatchewan Teachers Federation. https://www.stf.sk.ca/

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Jessica Wiedemann

Jessica is a student at University of Regina. Her passion for helping others and advocacy for the prevention of bullying in schools has lead her to a career in education. She is a dog lover, photographer, and a food lover.

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What do you think of you?

What do you think of you?

Understanding the concept of self, understanding oneself and finding our identity is an everchanging process that every individual will go through at different times in their lives. our reading in the textbook this week was chapter 3, and it focused on the idea of self-concept and identity.

Erik Erikson developed a theory of stages of development. He described these stages as a developmental crisis. At each stage, there is a conflict between a positive and negative option. For example, in the 3rd stage which correlates to ages 3-6 years old, there is a conflict between initiative versus guilt. In this conflict, the child is taking initiative to make choices in activities but may be too assertive in their actions which can lead to the feeling of guilt. While reading about all these different stages I made a connection to which stage I am in currently being a young adult. It got me thinking about the actions and interactions I am struggling with or the ones I am exceeding at. This section provoked a lot of self reflection and applying some of the stages to where I am in my social development.

A concept highlighted in this chapter that I had a tough time understanding was the idea that difference between self-concept and self-esteem. I always thought that self-esteem was what I thought of myself and it was the same as this new term I learned reading this textbook, self-concept. However it is explained that they are in fact have meaning in the same realm but are two distinct things onto their own. Self-concept is a belief of who you are. It relates more to identity than to the belief of one’s self-worth. While self-esteem is the overall thought or feeling about one’s self and their worth as an individual. Self-esteem is affected by the outward environment while self-concept is more a internal idea of ones identity. The two terms seem to be interchangeable but they are different concepts of the self, one overarching the other.

Another theory that was introduced to me in this chapter was that of parenting styles and their affect on the child. I knew parents all had different ways of parenting their children, and there is no “right way” to parent. Even between my two parents there are different methods and ideologies of what works and what doesn’t, what is correct and what is wrong. The 4 types of parenting styles that were derived are authoritative, authoritarian, permissive, and rejecting/neglecting. The parameters of these types came from measuring the amount of affection and control given to the child. There are speculations and generalizations made about these parenting styles saying one causes higher grades, better adjustment, and more positive self-esteem, however these do not seem to be grounded with experimental evidence.

A topic of this chapter that interested me the most was the different classifications of children in the section on cliques and friendships. There are 4 classifications of children, popular children, rejected children, controversial children, and neglected children. In reading these different classifications I made a connection to my personal experiences when I was a child and in adolescence. From elementary school to graduating high school I had issues with bullies as well as being isolated from my peers. Remembering these experiences I had I was able to put my past self into 2 of these categories. Understanding these different categories children can fall into helped in my reflection on myself, and that understanding will aid my future career as a teacher to be able to see where students are in their social interactions. With this knowledge I may be able to counteract the negative impacts these categories can bring to students who are in them.

Even with this knowledge there are still holes in the concept of social development, and this poses the question that with the interplay of development and peers and parental relationships, what is the teachers role in creating a positive experience for the child?

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Jessica Wiedemann

Jessica is a student at University of Regina. Her passion for helping others and advocacy for the prevention of bullying in schools has lead her to a career in education. She is a dog lover, photographer, and a food lover.

Make sure to comment below and follow her on social media, she loves to reach out and connect with you!